...in my defense...

if anyone has read my sister's blog of jan 10 2008, i need to add my two cents, because i think that she still doesn't understand my reaction to her pregnancy. i don't completely understand why she would talk about that in a blog, but i haven't gone through it and i don't understand what it does to a person. if it helps her to talk about it, then more power to her.

i love my sister. and it is true, we don't see eye to eye on everything. our personalities are very different and tend to clash...alot. also, as she said, things are getting better. but i really do love my sister.

i remember the day that she told us that she was pregnant like it was yesterday. everyone who didn't know already thought that we were moving again. my family tends to movie quite a bit. it happened just as she said it did. she said it through sobs and she got the reactions from all of us like she said she did. i really did say that. and i am not ashamed of saying it either. my sister made a mistake. and she will admit that it was a mistake. she said that i was on a pedestal. i probably was, but how can you help someone you love improve if you are not better yourself. that sounds kind of selfcentered. i hope that made sense. an example of what i am trying to say is how can a drug addict help another drug addict from quitting. it doesn't work.

my intention in saying what i said was to help her understand that in order for her to become better and overcome this mistake the right way, she needed to feel everything and feel it to the fullest. she needed to be dragged through the mud, i guess, not by me or anyone else, but by herself. she needed to feel that guilt that prompts us to change. i guess i didn't get across that i was supportive of her and love her.

i don't understand how she felt or what she was going through. and i am learning that girls, especially when they are pregnant think with their emotions and not very logically, so alot of her choices have not made sense to me. i have been and will always be there for my sister though. sometimes, however, (and this pregnancy was not one of them) we have to go through some problems on our own in order to grow like heavenly father wants us to grow. so kati, if i don't help sometimes, it isn't because i don't love you or care about you, it is because i do love you and want to see you grow like i know you can. ;)

...finally...

so i finally added a dude to my friends list. well, he is married and has a son, so it is his family's blog, but he is still a dude. now i feel better. ;)

...uh...

i was just reading some of the comments that were made on my last post and found some new people to add to my "cool links" list. so i added them and noticed that they are all women. the only people, besides my dad who checks only occasionally, that check my blog with any kind of consistency are women. not that that is a bad thing but come on. guys. where are ya?!

...more pics...

i said that i was going to post pics of the fam last blog and now i have them. i told you also that i posed for my dad when he was figuring out the settings. so those are included because they are hilarious. and then some modified ones of the family. some of the ones that i fixed up and made to look better (i think).

...jan 3...

well, it is now 2008. holy cow, last year was long and short all at the same time. so much happened last year, for me at least. and for the world. it is amazing how much stuff you can pack into a day and how much history is taking place in a day. interesting to think about.

well, on new years eve, the singles dance (be jealous those of you that are married, not really, i wish i was married) was at our building. it was the entire region. for the entire region, not that many people showed up, sadly. singles dances down here have a tendancy to be terrible. mostly because of the music. the dj's think they are the ish and try and dj like they are in a club or something and play crappy techno the whole night. thank goodness our dj didn't, though he did try and show off his dj skill by running several songs together that were really bad. he did that a couple of times with techno songs and then latino songs. it was annoying. but he did play alot of popular music to. everyone likes to dance to popular music. much better. it was pretty good. decorating it was a beast though. rachel may and i figured out how to do a canopy of stars that actually worked out really well, if i do say so myself. it turned out a lot better than i thought it was going to. we had a bunch of stars left over too that i think would have made it look that much better, but we didn't really have time. oh well. all in all, it was a fun dance, even though i didn't dance a whole lot. i prefer to watch. i am not a huge dancer. and there were a bunch of pictures taken too, but not by me. i had a bunch of friends take pictures. i will have to get them from them.

and we took a family picture on christmas day. i will need to post some of those. some are pretty funny. my dad had me pose for the camera while he was trying to figure out the settings on the camera....yeah... it was interesting. so those of you who have been asking for an update, this is it for now. i will post the pics when i get them.