well, today is the day. i was born 23 years ago this day. can i say that i don't feel 23? i don't feel a day older. i feel more tired than usual though. but that is because of finals i think. i have three finals to take in two days. i have one at 7 tomorrow morning which is going to be killer because it is my chem final and i am not doing so hot in chem. i am going to try and study my brains out so that i can get a decent grade on the final to hopefully bump up my grade. anyway, my birthday.
not much of a day, as i wanted it to be. i would much rather not draw attention to it. i have put too much expectation on my birthday when i was younger and was disappointed every time. i can't tell you how many times that i tried to have a birthday party or something when i invited a lot of people who i thought were friends only to have three or four people show up. not a huge self-esteem builder. that is why i don't like birthday parties and especially surprise parties. can't stand 'em.
i spent most of the day working. i got a call from dad first. we talked for a bit but he had to get to work and so did i. then mom called and i got to talk to her for a bit. then i got a few texts here and there from friends. i am surprised at how many people actually remembered though. i tried to keep it hush. i really didn't want to make a big deal out of it. as negative as i am about my birthday, i am very thankful for the friends that i have and their support for me.
mom sent me a box that got to me today. i don't think that she was intending it for my birthday, but it got here today so it made it that much better. and she is bringing some good stuff when they come up and bring Kati's stuff in a week. i haven't seen the fam since Christmas. I wish we could be closer. it isn't until you are far away that you realize how much you love them.
so, happy day. :D
not much of a day, as i wanted it to be. i would much rather not draw attention to it. i have put too much expectation on my birthday when i was younger and was disappointed every time. i can't tell you how many times that i tried to have a birthday party or something when i invited a lot of people who i thought were friends only to have three or four people show up. not a huge self-esteem builder. that is why i don't like birthday parties and especially surprise parties. can't stand 'em.
i spent most of the day working. i got a call from dad first. we talked for a bit but he had to get to work and so did i. then mom called and i got to talk to her for a bit. then i got a few texts here and there from friends. i am surprised at how many people actually remembered though. i tried to keep it hush. i really didn't want to make a big deal out of it. as negative as i am about my birthday, i am very thankful for the friends that i have and their support for me.
mom sent me a box that got to me today. i don't think that she was intending it for my birthday, but it got here today so it made it that much better. and she is bringing some good stuff when they come up and bring Kati's stuff in a week. i haven't seen the fam since Christmas. I wish we could be closer. it isn't until you are far away that you realize how much you love them.
so, happy day. :D
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